Emotions and thoughts crossed my mind. My heart was racing, faster than I ever thought it could. My vessels were blowing, and I was almost near to a heart attack. We are now just next to each other, the closest I could ever imagine. Should I hold her hand or should I not? This question went across me and I could not make my decision. This was my only chance to express my feelings towards her, something that I have been dreaming of doing. The clock was ticking and time was running fast.

As it was near the examination periods, our teacher was letting us de-stress. We were supposed to close our eyes and some classical music would be played and we were told to imagine that we were in a beach. The “music” was actually sounds of crashing waves and sea breeze. She was sitting beside me, and I was slowly moving my chair towards her. Luckily, her eyes were closed and did not notice me stalking. I was only Primary 5.

On the first day of primary school, I met this very girl who made me had the feeling of first love. It was indeed love at first sight! But, sadly, we were not in the same class, until Primary 5, I met her again, and this time, we were in the same class! For some unknown reasons, I was very excited when I came to know about this. Maybe I could not forget the feelings for her? Who knows. Being small kids (in the eyes of the teachers who did not believe we could do something right) in primary school, we do not choose our seat, but rather, the teacher assigns you. (Aw... boring…) In my heart, I prayed and prayed that I could have the chance to sit beside her. When almost three quarter of the students had been assigned their seat, the seat beside her was still empty! I still had a chance! In the end, to my delight, I was assigned to seat with her!! That was the happiest day of my life!

Being shy people, we two did not dare to talk to each other. But, slowly, we started to have some communication. I found out that she was a really nice girl, and a great companion as well. Every time I saw her, my heart would start to race and my breathing will deepen. She was everything to me- my life, my hope, and my dream. I just wanted to spend my life with her. I had been wanting to express my feelings to her, but was afraid that she would reject me. The thought of my heart getting crushed deprived me of doing so, but time changed my thoughts.

Finally the day came. We were doing some de-stressing exercise conducted by the teacher. I thought for long whether to hold her hands. After much thought, I plucked up the courage to do it. I held her hands in mine. I could feel her warmth penetrating through my whole body and it felt great. Her hands were smooth and tender, making my heart thump a million gazillion times faster and difficulty in breathing. That moment was unforgettable till now. She immediately screamed and ran to the toilet. I knew I had failed… But, she forgave me, and we still remained as friends after the incident.